A Domino Effect~!

On a daily basis we own up to a million things…we speak, we listen, we acknowledge, we criticize, we reflect, and hope that at the end of it all…we gain a deeper understanding to the matter in question. But only when something is said so randomly and so decisively, do we begin to comprehend the lengths of its range and the magnitude of its severity. We live in a time where change is so rapid, that often times we begin to see it present only when it is already fading. A battle that one may never conquer is when he is up against history itself…and you’d think I should know that by now. It’s a domino effect really~!

The Fast Lane

I’m left wanting more, and I wonder why…but then again, why do I ask myself these questions when I already know its answers. I know well enough that I’ve planned nothing, but that doesn’t mean I’ve anticipated nothing. It’s funny how things work, and in this case…I’m happy with the way it’s shaping up. So what’s next I wonder…~hemmm~ …well, perhaps it is advisable to adhere with the rule of ‘Occam’s Razor’. Regardless, exciting times lie ahead. Bring on the weekdays~!

When it Stops…

Ever found yourself chasing cars, an impossible dream, pink unicorns or even the hope of salvation that just seems too far away. Forgive my peculiar analogies, but the point I make is that whilst we strive to pursue this unfeasible intention, ask yourselves if you have ever come across a predicament where it is ourselves that suffers the most…sacrificing our wants, disregarding our needs, compromising our principles, ignoring our happiness…thus leaving our lives in an utter state of disarray and dismay.

As unfair as it seems, why do we still hold on and continue this self persecution, inflicting this constant pain and sorrow to our very self’s. I may never have a standard answer that would possibly satisfy everyone…but in many instances, I believe we do so all for the sole purpose that we simply care too much. Yes, caring too much can be detrimental. In a matter of opinion, this is of most detriment when we direct our care to those who simply lack care for us, and by the practice of the given act…we in turn begin to slowly, but surely care less and less for our own self’s.

Looking back on the years…I realize that perhaps I too may have subconsciously succumb to this illusion, or rather disillusion…creating a land of fantasy which disregards realism, all in the hope to comfort oneself. In this mystical land I speak of, we tell ourselves that we are doing the right thing…we use the term ‘compromising’ as our saving grace and we set out ~thinking~ that we’re happy. Yes, I’ve experienced the lot, and I guess it’s safe to assume that we’ve all experienced the aftermath of this specific event- the repercussions of a ~breakup~!

Albert Einstein once said; ‘reality is merely an illusion, albeit a persistent one’. I remain hesitant to comply fully, as I feel reality remains an illusion only if we remain naïve. With regards to certain experiences that I’ve been through, I truly believe that the luminosity of reality is most prominent when we hit rock bottom. It is only when we’re stepped on, torn apart and left to disintegrate in burning flames will our eyes see clearly…and it is at this point of time we discover ourselves and the people around us better. True friendships are affirmed and exposed…and only when we fall to pieces, can we truly discover what makes us whole. I bear witness that when it’s all said and done…we come out being a stronger, wiser and better person.

To a close friend of mine to whom I care for deeply…I would like to make known that during this difficult time that you are currently facing, I truly understand that there are indeed large areas of gray that diminish hope, optimism and understanding…but if there is one thing that I need you to understand is that you shoulder no blame…and even the mere contemplation of accepting blame is rather unseemly and somewhat criminal. Feelings are not supposed to be logical and it is never a crime to care for someone…but we must never forget to care for ourselves first and foremost, because ultimately, that is the one thing we have total control of. I shall highlight the fact that you are an awesome, awesome person…and chin up my dear…you’re a stronger person than you give yourself credit for. You do not walk alone…this much I assure you.